Mommy Time!

 I am sitting here in a dark room, no lights,no TV, just the sound of my fingers hitting the keyboard and I have to admit, I am liking it:) Now, don't get me wrong, more than a few hours of it, i would be missing my sweet,Precious,noisy children. But, for right now I'm enjoying some me time:) No screaming, no crying, no mommy can you do this or can you clean up that, no diaper changing, whining, bottle fixing,fit throwing and no fighting . Just time to myself to focus on absolutely nothing. I don't get a lot of these moments to myself, they are few and far between, so when I get the opportunity to just sit and do....well, nothing....I LOVE IT!!!! I hope all mommies get some "mommy time" once in a while. I am one of those that likes to do everything myself, one might call me a control freak(Cori and Jess)lol. I hate someone else being in charge, making the decisions and taking care of my kids, after all, isn't it my Job to take care of my kiddos, clean my house, fix dinner,ect ect ect! I'm not one to ask for help, a weakness of mine,probably. Some days though, I may be a bit extreme when it comes to being in charge of my kids and things being done my way. I remember the first time we ever left Ayden with our mom's. I spent the entire week before writing a 12 page itinerary(yes I said 12 front and back, sad i know) of what ayden liked, what time he ate, how he ate, when he pooped, what it should look like, how to get him to sleep, his favorite song,show, meal, the list went on and on and on....Well, when I asked Jason to look at it and make sure I didn't miss anything, he asked, "what is this?" I said, Ayden's fact sheet. Jason looked at me puzzled and said, it's 2 nights Paige, then ripped up my "book" and said, our mom's raised us, he will be fine. Isn't it funny how different our mind set is from the first child to the 2nd, now to the 3rd. When I leave the kids now, I still have some sadness, but I don't give orders(well i try not too) I don't write a novel on how to keep my kids for a day, and I actually find time away from my kids is good for the both of us. They learn that they DON'T need mommy for everything and I learn that they are ok without mommy too and other's are capable of taking care of my kids. I find that when I get back to them, I appreciate them more and I feel more refreshed and not so stressed out and impatient. I find that giving myself time away from them allows me to focus on myself, my spiritual life,Jason, my friends, the other things in my life that are going on, but I seem to forget about because my world evolves around my three little bundles of Joy! While God gives us these precious gifts(children) to enjoy and love, he also gives us grandparents and babysitters to enjoy our kiddos too:) So find time for yourself and learn to enjoy "mommy time" I know I sure do!!