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Ayden the very first Morning he woke up to Ella being home, all he could do was just sit and stare at her. It was one of the most memorable moments of my life. I will never forget it!
Do you ever wish, as an adult, that for a day you could go back to when you were a kid? The carefree days when you played outside till dark, slept till noon, had unlimited energy, thought naps were awful and your biggest concern was making sure your chores were done before mom and dad got home, so at ten till 5 you were rushing through getting them done! Goodness, I would love a carefree day. I had a discussion with Ayden that Reminded me of how innocent and beautiful the world and people are through the eyes of a child . How carefree he is and never see's a danger,concern,problem. Just see's people and things as they are with nothing attached. Aydens such a sweetheart and always so loving and compassionate and he reminded me of a good lesson today, thank-you Jesus for moments like this!
As usual, we were in a rush to get dressed to make it to school. Not 8 am school, noon half a day..Sad I know.We always let the time get away from us and seem to be running out the door at the last minute. This morning I had gotten dressed, Ayden was dressed, Jaxon was screaming running around naked bc he couldn't find his spiderman underwear(i'll be honest, I'm lucky if Jaxon wears underwear half the time, he prefers commando)but never the less, he was hysterical. Ella was just waking up from her nap and was still in Pj's. Now after having two boys, all boy boys at that, who now only will wear character shirts, the highlight of my day many times is dressing up that precious baby girl. She has sooo many clothes and I love to dress her cute. Ayden who's always my helper was handing me diapers, lotion, wipes anything I needed said,momma she needs to wear this shirt and i like this hat.I went with the shirt and grabbed some shorts to wear with it and was excited bc it was Ellas first time to ever wear Jean shorts! Jaxon was still screaming in the background while I'm dressing ella, still naked I'm yelling back and forth to him get dressed as I hear him getting more upset. I get her shorts on and they fall off...Darn, the newborn shorts are still too big...ughh. So I grabbed some purple cotton shorts, fell off. Now I know I'm a woman and am emotional at times and this wasn't anything to cry over, but I started balling...Ayden is looking at me like I'm crazy and he says, mommy why are you crying...Because Ayden, she can't wear the shorts, nothing ever fits, all her summer clothes are still too big,blah blah blah...You can imagine my rant...Poor Ayden, I know he was completely clueless..I get a one piece jumper out that still was quite big on her dressed her and Ayden bends down to Ella and says, "who cares mommy I'm itty bitty God made me that way" Itty bitty is what Ayden has called Ella since she was about 2 months old..Wow, yes Ayden you are right, God did make her that way and I can sit here and cry because her cute clothes aren't fitting(which I promise it wasn't just the clothes she wasn't able to wear that caused the crying spell) or I can Praise our Merciful Creator because he made her so completely perfect in his image. His plans for her are HIS plans, not my own. I have to hit the point where I truly realize that and quit trying to control it. It made me think of someones facebook status I read that said, God doesn't make mistakes! That's so right, he doesn't! In Aydens eyes, he see's nothing but perfection in that little girl. Daily he says, " momma, she's my sweetheart baby" He loves her with all of his heart. I wish we all could see things like children. Look at people for who they are and not the baggage that may follow them.Find beauty and joy in everything, even cardboard boxes and empty pop bottles :) I want Enjoy the days with my kids and work on planting that seed of Christ love for them in them, instead of focusing on the messy house, whats for dinner or checking our facebook(guilty of all 3)! Now, please understand, I in no way care what size clothes sweet Ella is in, nor that she can't wear most of them. I love her tiny frame, she's just perfect in my eyes. I just got emotional because of all the stress of it and the overall picture and it all just had hit me. My point is this, Through Ayden's eyes Ella's not small because she has a problem somewhere with her body, she is small because God chose to make her that way, and he makes NO mistakes! Thank-you Ayden for reminding me to rejoice in the way she was wonderfully and fearfully made (itty bitty).
Psalms139:14- I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right.
Oh and I know you are all asking, Did Jax find the spiderman underwear? The answer is no, Commando it was :) He did manage to get clothes on though and since Jaxon spends most of his life naked because he just likes to be naked, I rejoice when he comes out fully dressed! Shoes were on backwards, clothes were mismatched, but hey its the small things,right?!?!?!
